it's just moi!

the past few months seemed to have been dragging on and on and on....you got the picture: i am plain bored.

since i finished writing my thesis in april, i've been feeling a little less comfortable with the thought that my departure date from tokyo will still be in late september. it's not that i don't like being in japan anymore. it's just that boredom is slowly killing me little by little. i feel so unproductive...and that is after baking almost all kinds of cookies i know ( a little exaggerated, yeah...), learning how to cook not just for breakfast but for lunch and dinner as well, going around tokyo's suburbs and biking around kodaira city's small crevices. man, i still am bored.

most of the time i fight this off by scaring myself of what my life will be again in manila: the pollution, the pickpockets, the terrorists, the garbage, the GOVERNMENT, the economic crises. but, heck, it does not really work for me now. all i can think of are jollibee, max's fried chicken, sm, rockwell, tutuban, glorietta, boracay, cebu, bohol.....waaaaaa. i want to go home now.

i know...i know that i won't like what i'll see when i finally land at NAIA but my heart is really in the philippines -- the government be damned! i am counting the weeks, the days, even the hours when i will board JAL to finally fly home.

then again, i will miss my apartment. it has always been a warm haven in my two-year stay in tokyo. nah...i know i can't have my cake and eat it too. :(