i am happy

i don't want to sound sad or morose when i write this. but at this point i am on the verge of ending a relationship. it has been long overdue and i keep on stalling because i badly wanted the relationship to last, no matter what the cost. then again, circumstances have connived and i am on the brink of severing my ties with this man.

we have been together for seven years...seven long tumultuous years. i had been happy, i had been sad, i laughed, i cried....but now the time to end it has come. in so many ways i feel sad; endings always send me bawling over nothing, really.

but i am happy too. happy that i have finally found the courage to let go. i never thought it would be this easy. for seven years my life revolved around him. i am just thankful that god has blessed me with supportive friends.

i really am happier now. i wake up everyday SMILING and thanking god for all the gifts he has given me. literally. i have never been like this before and the joy that i feel inside keeps me from being bitter about everything. i only know that one day everything will fall into place.

i am happy now. for me, that's what matters most.