soulmates

do i believe in soulmates? honestly, i do not know. i used to laugh at my former boss for being so into any 'new age' stuff like crystals, alternative healing, regression analysis, and other stuff that go against my roman catholic upbringing.

but how can you explain one person's special connection with another human being? joju and mine, for example. since we were kids, joju and i have already shared this special bond. initially, i thought it's just because we lived almost next-door to each other. we fell in and out of love for a while, moved on with our respective lives...and found other loves. yet, there will always be this tie that binds us together. i know he finds this amazing too. every time i have a problem, he'll suddenly appear from out of the blue to check on me. every time i dream of him, my biggest fear is something bad has happened to him.

we connect to each other in ways that make us feel peaceful and happy. every time we are together, it's as if we never parted at all...and i am talking here of years without seeing each other.

i am no longer in love with joju and i am sure he is no longer in love with me. we're way past the insecurity and jealousy that go with being in a state of passion. yet, i feel we are closer than ever. of course, we're very careful about treading on this volatile ground as there are people we could hurt in the process. nevertheless, the connection is blatantly there for all to see. we don't -- can't, even if our life depended on it -- deny this.

perhaps, if the concept of soulmates is true, we are each other's. i only know that we will always be there for each other till the end of time. or as has been said between the two of us, "in the next lifetime."